What's up with BB Gandanghari?

Before i Start, Let me clear that i have nothing againts this fabulous woman. I am actually in awe with her and what she has to go through to transform to the magnificient woman that she is now.

But please i am and never was trying to be like her because i am CLIOGODDESS and she is Ms. BB GANDANGHARI.

I got a little irked when i got home and someone who hasnt seen me for awhile thought that i am too skinny and that i looked problematic. (it's called stress and lack of sleep) Then somebody commented that i am as skinny as BB and maybe im trying to be like her.

I have known myself as CLIOGODDESS and im pretty sure that im not trying to be somebody else. I assumed my identity even before BB had the courage to tell the entire filipino community of who she is. I am grateful to her because she one of the vehicle of introducing the transgendered community in the the filipino mainstream. I would have wanted her to eloquently explain what transgenderism is, but that is just me. Nevertheless, She is the face of the transpinays all over. The other filipina now has someone to identify with but for others to say that i am trying to be her is like comparing two different movies done by the same diretor.

Although here's someone i think wouldnt mind being compared to her majesty

I can see some kind of a resemblance here. WHACHATINK?

Immaturity at its finest

At work:

Caller: Hi, i threw a party here at red lobster and my credit card doesnt seem to work. I paid off my balance yesterday.

ClioGoddess: I apologize Ma'am but we only process payments during business days and yesterday was sunday so the only time you can use your card will be tomorrow.

Caller: F*cking Shi*t! how do you want me to pay for my bill!

Cliogoddess: "Hugas ka ng plato ateh"

Scene 2:

Caller: Hi i am trying to book a flight online. The first one went through but the second one didnt. Can you check them out?

Cliogoddess: Well Ma'am i see here the frist transaction was authorized for $###.00 at 10:35pm and after that i see 7 authorization for a dollar amount. Just to clear Ma'am, how many times did you submit your booking?

Caller: What the F*ck are you saying? the system says its declined? F*cking.holy m*ther f*cking shit!

Cliogoddess: Ma'am all im saying is that everytime you submit your request online, An authorization for $1 is automatically approved in our system.

Caller: Oh you see that? did you see that i submitted it again 10 times since we started to talk?

Cliogoddess: "kulit ng matandang toh, nang-aasar pa"

Online:

I receive an email from this white trash looking pig that is proud of his obesse looking tummy and decided to show his picture all over the net with his ugly body and ugly face. Email says "You will never be a woman. FAGGOT!"

Ok, i was minding my life and i dunno what his problem is but here's what i'd like to tell him (although i didnt reply coz i simply dont have time to do so)

That's a very good observation mister, Im sure a lot of scientist would love to study how a simple life form like you can use internet and let alone have an opinion like that, You must be closely related to a jellyfish. Floating around with a deadly sting but then again these animals dont have brains so congratulations for being able to live in this world without a brain and just to let you know, I am not trying to be a woman coz i am one. I may not be the typical woman you're fictitious brain recognizes but i am a woman nonetheless.

ISIP BATA

What have i been doin?

I am sorry if i havent been updating my blog. Im sure you guys understand if there is nothing goin on with your life, there's nothing to write about however if there has been tremendous events and these shook you to your core. you have the settle the dust first in order to clear your mind. well im in a sand storm right now and i need to raze everything before i can organize my thoughts.

anyway. im just hiding from everything coz i did something out of my character. i have been partying hard so i spent all my money and without money o resorted to this>

Am i robbing an ATM or street gambling? You decide.

Current mood:HAHAH im actually buying drugs in broad daylight.

Used to Be

its been awhile since i put something here and just to update my blog and let everyone know that im still alive, here's a song that made me cry last two days ago. A song from Stevie wonder and the woman who made "NEVER BEEN TO ME" famous; charlene.

Superman was killed in Dallas
There's no love left in the palace
Someone took the Beatles' lead guitar
Have another Chivas Regal
You're 12 years old and sex is legal
Your parents don't know where or who you are

Used to be the hero of the ballgame
Took the time to shake the loser's hand
Used to be that failure only meant you didn't try
In a world where people gave a damn

Great big wars in little places
Look at all those frightened faces
But don't come here, we just don't have the room
Love thy neighbours wife and daughter
Cleanse your life with Holy water
We don't need to bathe, we've got perfume

Used to be a knight in shining armour
Didn't have to own a shiny car
Dignity and courage were the measure of a man
Not the drugs he needs to hide the scar

Can your teacher read, does your preacher pray
Does your president have soul
Have you heard a real good ethnic joke today
Mama took to speed and daddy ran away
But you mustn't lose control
Let's cut the class, I got some grass
The kids are wild we just can't tame 'em
Do we have the right to blame them

We fed them all our indecisions
We wrecked their minds with television
But what the hell, they're too young to feel pain
But I believe that love can save tomorrow
Believe the truth can make us free
Someone tried to say it, then we nailed Him to a cross
I guess it's still the way it used to be

Men are Fun to be with

I am one of the proponents in the age old battle between the sexes and this post might irk my fellow feminists although i have to admit that men are really fun to be with. Of course im not saying that they arent assholes but they could be fun assholes most of the time, specially if there's no romantic or sexual involvement.

I've recently realized how men could be jerks even to the point that i almost cursed them but this morning, I had the chance to hang out with some of my new found friends from work. Particularly this one asshole that really made it clear from the start that he is a certified schmuck.

The reason why i tell this is because i went out with my new girl friends and that experience was nice and fun too however girls cant really help but to be vain, shallow and dramatic, I also went with my new gay friends and that's always fun although i just hate it when they try to compete for attention and when they make such a big deal of everything. I also had bisexual friends but they really could be confusing at times.

But with men, There's no confusion, no competition and no pretensions. Just clean and not so clean fun. I think the only problems arises when they let their dumbstick take over their brains and we all know this happens 90% of their total existence.

The life that was

I remember the previous new year celebration, My mom and i was watching fireworks and i whispered to her that "this might be the last time i'll be celebrating this holiday in the philippines." I said that because i had laid my plans for 2008 and one of them would be to move to a different country but life throws in happy distractions and i enjoyed my stay. My two year friend from the US, came to visit me only to find out that im not the sole reason why he came here and untill now, his careless action still affects me in profound ways. Im partly to blame because he was careful for me not to move the whole universe for him but i did; and also I met wonderful friends who made me postpone my plans.

Now another year has passed. 2009 promises alot of potential and oppurtunity but somehow, im not in any way looking forward to it. i feel exactly the same way a felt towards christmas and new year. "This day too will past but it doesnt mean i couldnt celebrate it with a bang".

So i did, I went out on new year's eve. Everyone was amazed for they havent seen me in centuries and i tell you, i was looking gorgeous, i even made some good-looking drunk twins swoon over me. but of course after the hype of the celebration, im back to my old speck like existence.

maybe this post has some kind of self pitty in it but somehow, I can finally enjoy alone walks with no one but myself and it felt wonderful. No more irrational thoughts that maybe im not good enough that's why im alone. Just a sense of "i am alone coz no one is available and it doesnt mean it's the end of the world that i am."

I occassionally feel lonely but somehow my "checking facebook or yahoo or windows live therapy" is no longer the main point. I even deleted some of my friends just to get rid of the clutter of useless and superficial patronage that envelops this side of my life.

And to Geisha, Honey, Tapsi, Ifoundme, Bombero king and the others, forgive me but im taking a selfish streak right now. I hope you understand, I visit you often but i keep my thoughts to myself rather than leave a comment.

Take care and BE MERRY~

NEw year, New Hope, New life

The year has passed and there's a new one and people have been optimistic regardless of the dire reminder that there is a economic uncertainty looming.

well i just hope that people would stop waiting for the new year to wait for a better life, why cant we just wait for tomorrow and still hope for a better day than today? We really dont need to have January first to remind us of this hope. Do we?

On a personal note: im happy coz despite the sour life i had, I 've met Manywho makes me feel that im someone interesting and this is all i need to make me feel this year could be different.

Wishing every one a LUCKY YEAR AHEAD>