I recently went out with my EX and we decided to go to malate. After 4 years of not seeing each other we agreed to meet to check up on one another and to just hang around and have a good time. It was a date 2 months in the making because both of us were so busy and our schedule cant seem to meet. The day finally came and i was such a wreck with nerves of anticipation, excitement and a little bit of unease. perhaps im dreading that he would find me not attractive or less of what i was before. A funny thing and embarrasing event happened when i reached our meeting place, i though a guy waiting was my ex. So as i was walking towards him. I give out a big smile and a welcoming gesture. to bad it wasnt him so i just decided to pass over him and pretended to see someone i know. SHUCKS~ i felt so stupid.
At first both of us are were so uncomfortable and we even made unwise remarks about each other.Trying to be funny and casual but of course that didnt work it just made the night more uncomfortable. but as the night went by, familiar feelings and ease started to grow on both of us. I realized our connection was more mature and substantial. We started to joke about our moments together, our plans and hope for the future. and even those unforgetable experiences. After our fill of little booze, He offered to take me home. of course i figured intimacy will be next. however i just cant throw myself to him thinking that it could be consider our first date plus he shared that he has a girlfriend already. although he said that it's not as serious as i think it is but still thinking someone else is making him happy was a bit to much to handle. There were hints of longing and nostalgia of what we did in the same room that we were in but i figured it wasnt just the right time for emotions to flow. overall. our date was enjoyabble and i cant wait for the next one.
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