TEACH ME TO BE SANE AGAIN

Talk about damage control. Everyone sees this evil man because that's all that i talk about him, His shortcomings and his indifference about me. Of course that is unfair, but im not gonna talk and try to justify him. Im tired of thinking and deciphering his mind, his motives and his actions. Im tired of creating next day scenarios. I always say that what will be will be, but still try to manipulate the outcome. I said he loved me but now i know he doesnt, he just wants me to be ok. I said he is happy with me, but he is having a blast with others. I said he is making plans for us but procrastinates them always. I want him to love me. I want him to be with me. But this is not about me. Its about him. and now it should be enough about him.

BWAHAHAHA

akalain mo yun, because of my blog eh meron matanda na malapit ng atakihin sa puso sa galit sakin. I dont know him and i dont care how much he hates me. kakatuwa lang kc i can stir emotional hatred pla sa blog. bwahaha for your reference here is the guys who hates my kalandian

i need an Interpreter ~

Nahihilo nko, paikot ikot nlang, siempre kaylangan poised parin pero deep inside malapit nko masuka sa walang hanggang emotional ride na2. KUYA! hindi po ride all you can and ticket ko. i cannot go on forever.

Anyway e2 kc ang nangyari, siempre diba luka luka ako at super feeling (pero hindi super hero) so madalas ako magdemand at gus2 ko exclusive lang ang time and attention sakin. of course hindi nman dapat ganun, sabi nga sakin nung me asawa eh "BKIT KAYO BA?". Tama hindi nman kami so dpat hindi ako magselos, dapt hindi ako masyadong maging demanding. meron nga nman shang right na gawin kung ano gus2 niang gawin at samahan kung sino gus2 nia samahan. pero kc nman bkit yung taong kinaiinisan ko pa lagi nia kasama. well sabi nia wala nman sha pakialam kong sino sumasama sa kanya. he said that its me na lagi sha masaya pag kasama, pero bkit ganun, mas madalas pa sila magkasama kesa samin. He said i always misinterpret him. cguro nga kc naman why cant he just be straight! kung ano ano pang ligoy ligoy. leche nman tong luka lukang puso ko, ang hilig sumakay sa kung ano ano.

THE BLOG IS BACK

Hay salamat! the blogging queens are here ulit.. hehehe. pansinin natin na ang mga nagboblog khit mejo psychotic silang tignan eh balanse parin ang takbo ng utak nila. Im so glad that CHAQINEZZ is back. im so glad na ur enjoying ur stay jan sa bago mong galaxy. well knowing u. im sure ur gonna make evrybit of moment there a fun one. lam mo ba naiyak ako nang nabasa ko yang bago mong entry. its like im finally back home. para akong gaga d2 na nagsesenti hehehe. anyway im looking forward sa mga updates. hehehe GINA> wag ka tamad ipasok mo na yung mga entries mo, napupuno na ang outlook sa dami ng entries mo!

Balikan Natin

Si Gina at ako, mga babaeng kinakarir ang pagboblog. Meron akong entry dito before na ksama nmin c CHAQZ, isa sa mga mahilig magblog, pero dahil sa hectic schedule at maraming guestings, eh mejo wla ng time c CHAQZ magblog sa ngayon. (kakamiss ka CHAQINEZZ)> So Balik tayo sa entry n2, Kahapon, dahil sa pagod eh naisipan ko na balikan ang mga entries ko sa blog. I never thought na matatawa ako sa mga entries ko dun, i didnt expect na yung mga naka sulat dun eh mejo provocative and funny. Basta iba ang dating sakin habang binabasa ko sha, meron pa ngang mga entries dun na minsan di ko na matandaan kung cno cno ang tinutukoy, ang mahalaga eh. i enjoy writing and wa ako care if others dont enjoy the things i write. ang mahalaga, libre ang internet sa work.

pahinga muna

This is what i desperately need. REST. Physically and emotionally im drained. Everyone knows what i have gone through. though not every one agrees that i should spend tremendous amount on things that im investing my energy on. SO i promise that next time i have time and energy im gonna enjoy! using my new,,,

NSA KAWALAN

Ang buhay minsan parang walang direkyon, minsan walang sense, Minsan kala mo pag mahal mo isang tao, magiging ok ang lahat. sabi nila life becomes clearer and things suddenly have meaning. Nice concept., sana lang applicable sakin. Nung una ok lang ang lahat pero as expected things change. people change. Sana lang katulad ng picture na to, Kahit nsa kawalan eh, parang calm and serene parin.